I'm not sure how I want to end this poem yet, but here is what I have so far.
Day in
and day out
I just want to
scream.
Because everyday
I think the same goddamn things,
but my brain won't keep quiet
although I try to move on
and every night I see a light
that makes me think
of a played out scene.
What could I have done different?
Was it something I said?
For every action there are a thousand worlds:
is it always the same in the end?
I worry until I hurl
and crawl up into a ball.
Wishing, praying that it didn't all go wrong.
That somehow and someway
I didn't always dance to the same tune.
That the fiddler would stop
and pick something new.